Emerging Day by day I’m getting a little better, but I’m impatient. I want to be recovered from this cold. I didn’t expect to be laid this low at the last gasp of chemo. I remember that when my children would whine at me that “it wasn’t fair” I would tell them that if life were fair, we’d be living in a one room shack with our main possessions being the clothes on our backs, one pot and a bowl each in which we would be served our one meal a day that looked suspiciously just like yesterday’s meal. So why is that I feel like getting this cold “isn’t fair” somehow? Perhaps I just need a little perspective.
So yesterday I was able to prepare meals and do a few light tasks. I really want to go to the store today to lay in supplies for Howard’s absence. It’s all very well sending other people to the store for you, but it’s so much easier to pick the stuff out yourself. For instance, I asked for organic cashews and they arrived last week but there were more than I would have bought for myself and they were stale. No one else seems to be eating them so I suppose it was a waste of money. And going through the produce section is always inspiring. I much prefer to do it myself. I’m just afraid of a setback if I try to do too much, though.
I got my lay off notice in the mail today. It turns out I’m laid off as of April 1st, with 30 days notice starting March 1st. I’m paid up until April 1st. Not good news. I suppose I’ll have to spring to my feet a lot earlier than I planned. I can’t imagine it now.
So yesterday I was able to prepare meals and do a few light tasks. I really want to go to the store today to lay in supplies for Howard’s absence. It’s all very well sending other people to the store for you, but it’s so much easier to pick the stuff out yourself. For instance, I asked for organic cashews and they arrived last week but there were more than I would have bought for myself and they were stale. No one else seems to be eating them so I suppose it was a waste of money. And going through the produce section is always inspiring. I much prefer to do it myself. I’m just afraid of a setback if I try to do too much, though.
I got my lay off notice in the mail today. It turns out I’m laid off as of April 1st, with 30 days notice starting March 1st. I’m paid up until April 1st. Not good news. I suppose I’ll have to spring to my feet a lot earlier than I planned. I can’t imagine it now.
1 comment:
Hey, Seiza! I'm glad you're starting to get better. Again.
I'm really just writing this to tell you that your email acct (at ucla.edu) seems to be down. I've sent you three emails on different days and they all bounced back. Error msg says "Over quota."
Post a Comment