Expect a Miracle

I turn over cards every day at night for the next day. The one I turned over for today was "Miracles" and it told me to expect a miracle. Okay. Although I didn't see how, I was open to what might occur to shift the situation. Certainly my mood had shifted when I woke up and I felt optimistic and light. The swelling around the mastectomy site had gone down. And I slept seven and a half hours, which is much more sleep than I've managed at a stretch in a very long time.

Andrine gave me a wonderful massage this afternoon and I could feel a lot of energy shift while I was on the table. She is truly gifted. I felt calm, relaxed, and a bit sleepy afterwards, although I didn't sleep. Then Teri came over for a visit and that was very pleasant. My new friend Heather showed up as well and we played a bit of scrabble while Teri looked over my healing notebooks.

The phone(s) kept interrupting this pleasant scene, but it was mostly good news. My doctor's nurse called to answer the questions I had on Friday and of course I had a whole list of quite technical questions so she handed the phone to the doctor (the surgical oncologist) who had been standing right next to her. And yes, he could order the oncotype dx test and thought it might be a good idea. And then I asked him about removing my ovaries (an operation known as an oophorectomy), since that would bring on menopause, cut down estorgen, and reduce my risk of ovarian cancer (which is really horrible). He thought that would be a great idea and he said it also would eliminate the need for chemo. He said if we're going to go that route, we won't need the oncotype dx test (very expensive). It still has to go before the tumor board on the 19th, but this may just be my ticket out of here. I'm elated by the possiblity that I won't have to do chemo. And menopause sounds like a great idea at this point. Gee whiz, I'm 55. It's about time. I could barely contain myself. It's a miracle. It did leave me wondering why he hadn't thought of the oopherectomery idea himself, though.

Then my friend Johanna called. I had wanted to do an Spiritual Respnse Therapy (SRT) workshop in Olympia later this month but given my energy level, it was out of the question. However, she's going to do it as well so she will do the driving and will help me out. I made reservations today. The SRT classes were all part of my master plan and I'm amazed that they are back in the picture. It's another miracle.

It may be a time of slowing down, but that gives me a chance to notice these miracles blooming around me all the time. It's sukkot, the season of our joy and I felt very joyful today. Teri stayed for dinner, which ended abruptly when we all ran off to our scheduled meetings. She was still eating as we ran off. Fortunately Stepen was there to keep her company, but it did seem very silly of us, especially since Teri is one of the more delightful people on the planet and we don't see nearly enought of her.

Later, my EFT group met at my house. It was really a lovely meeting. I got to work on someone else's issues for a change and we had a lot of fun. It was very lighthearted and playful work.

Jasper will be flying off to New York on Wednesday to do this show. They have expanded the part of the accordianist so they need him NOW. I'm very intrigued to find out what this play will be all about. It turns out that Howard will be New York when it's on and will be able to see it. I look forward to the reports. And if I'm not doing chemo, I will be able to see Jasper perform in San Diego in January and take my trip to LA and San Francisco. More miracles.